Going Forward

I have been thinking a lot about my blog this month. I know I haven't posted that much because I am trying to get a few things settle in my own mind. When I think about my mind and what I am thinking and what I want to do, and where I want to take this blog.

I have a desire to help people. I have a desire to touch people's lives. I don't like to offend people or hurt people. I want people to be touched by what they read here. So when I am posting I am always praying hard that the right words are being said to help someone through their day.

I know that I am not perfect and I know that other people are not perfect. I try not think about all the what ifs that can happen but lately it has been harder and harder for me to deal with those and put them aside.

I want to blog more and yet I hold back. I am not sure why I hold back. Then I ask myself is it fear, or feeling that I might fail at it. There are so many good blogs out there with insights that sometimes I think, what can I offer. However I have come to the realization that no one else is me. Then I realize this is all about I and not about what the desire behind the motivation, really is the desire to help others, with seeing a part of growing hopefully more in God and having God be the center and take it from there.

So going forward through this journey that I am living trying to post here and try to help people. I hope that God will be in what I am saying so that it is not about me and more about Him.

I hope that all of you have Blessed Day

School

So I have been praying about this information for a couple weeks. I really am excited about it. I am looking to go into Message Therapy and so far with the encouragement I have gotten from the few people around me has been great. Now I am even more excited.

I really like the school that I looked at as they have some pretty good benefits.
I am looking at Anthem College here in Beaverton.
www.anthem.edu/locations/anthem-college-beaverton/

I am just praying that I am able to get the financial aid to help out with the expense upfront. I will have to see what happens when things get a bit closer but looks like hopefully I can get things rolling in a few weeks to 1.5mos. I am excited. :)

What do I want to do

One thing that I have been thinking about is what I really want to do.
I am at a job that in a way is satisfying as I do feel that I help people.
I however have been feeling like I want something else to be more involved in helping people. I like some phone work but I know that I like to be around people too.

I have been told by some of my family that I should go into a certain field. They felt that I would be good in that line of work. So after years of up and down weighing the options and really wanting to get into something I would enjoy and know that I would be helping people. I decided to look into.

I went on Wednesday to an appointment with a school that was close by and really liked what the information I got from it. Right now I am putting it in God's hands due to the fact that I would have to get help through financial aid. I am hoping that things will work out and the program that I would take is going to be looks like 11.5mos for it to finish.

I am excited for the changes because I think it would put me in a better place.

Getting to Things

You know those things that you need to do but don't want to and put off and put off.
This week was the week I couldn't put it off anymore. I had two things that I needed to get done but didn't want to.

Through a situation I couldn't put it off anymore. So Tuesday night I tackled one of them and ten Wednesday morning I tackled the other. It felt really good to get those done so that they weren't nagging on me anymore. Plus it made my world seem so much nicer because I didn't have to worry about them anymore.

Sometimes I think to myself why did I wait so long to get to those when it made me feel so much better when it was done.

Friday - 2/13/09

Well I haven't posted in a little while. So I thought today was just as good as any to make a post.

I am not a superstitious person. I don't believe that kind of thing. I believe that there is reason for what happens when it happens. However I do have to say that I know there are those out there that do see things in a different way.

I know there has been a lot of emphasis with the number 13 and a lot of emphasis with making Friday the 13th a day that is not considered a good day. I try to look beyond what Hollywood has made this day into and I try to look at the good in it. There is a lot of good that can come on a day when most people would cringe because of the way it has been portrayed. For instance today where I live it was sunny. Of course I didn't think to get my camera out and take a picture to prove but since it tends to rain where I live at the end of winter I enjoyed having some sun out. It has not turned out so far to be a bad day.

So going forward from this point. Instead of seeing the Bad in Friday the 13th - I am going to chose to see the good.

I hope that those that read this post would chose to do the same as well.

On that note - Have a Happy Friday the 13th or what is left of it.